Wanderlust

After being in Mammoth for two years or so, It is time to move on. It's strange last may was first time in years I wasn't heading off to some new place and adventure. It was weird to be staying in place for a while . All in all it worked out pretty good even if my summer turned out in ways that I never could have expected. Now with another May coming up, I'm getting the itch to move on. I have no idea of where yet. But I do know it will likely involve mountains somehow. I'm just looking forward to getting out of mammoth and to the next adventure. But before I take off there are things to figure out, which I know they will take care of themselves, in ways that I have no idea of how they will play out. Till I move on. Opening day beckons

In case if you didn't know...

In case if you didn't know it's only one week from the greatest day of the year! Opening day of the baseball season.

Things to do...

Things I want to do or see happen this year or sometime in the near future

See lot’s of baseball games this summer…We’ll see what the final number is. Over under is 10 for the season.

Write and get published somewhere…

Get back to working in baseball, this is going to happen, the question is when and where. For I will be at the baseball winter meetings in Nashville, if nothing else fails.

See one of my favorite people come to Christ , what this will take and when this will happen and what’s going to happen in between only God knows. It’s been an interesting journey so far.

See Dream Theater in concert. I’ve been close to seeing them a few times, but something always comes up. I am going to see them in concert.

Figure out what I’m going to do next, the rest of things I want to do will fall into place after that.

Frustrated

Lately, I've been pretty frustrated on many levels, work, girls, church and a few other things. Some ways the last couple of months I have felt that nothing I've done is making a difference what so ever. Especailly on the job front, as I'm hardly getting enough hours to get by and I'm not being challenged what so ever. I'm so ready to do something different, but I'm just trying to figure it out and nothing much has been happening, so just another level of frustration to say the least. It is something I've been thinking about a lot. And the realization of much of the causes of all this frustration is to cotton candy theolgy. What's that? Well it's simple it a bunch of preaching, teaching that just touches the surfaces of issues and what's going in the text. And works on focusing on how it feels to you. Maybe it's a big complaint of the charsmatic movement theology that I've been living with the last couple of years. It's taken me a while to fully realize how much I haven't been growing and been feed by the church I've been going too for a while. While the culture may be nice, but it doesn't do much for growth. And that is root of all my other frustrations . So I've started to go to another church and look for other outlets for growth. It's a process, but one that I'm just starting to figure out so that whatever happens next I'm ready for.

The real map of the USA

baseball and waiting

Have you ever felt like you know what you want to do, but yet you are so far away. It's frustrating. For myself I want to be back working around the ballpark this summer and of right now. It's not likely to be happening this summer. As the job I appiled for with the Stockton ports baseball club was outsourced to a food company. I'm okay with it, because obiviously it's not the right timing to get back in the game. But it doesn't mean it's frustrating to say the least.
I guess frustrating is a good mood to describe my mood latley. For i've been frustated in this thing called a realationship and friendship. For I'm just waiting for something to happen along with this guy called Jesus but it feels like, nothing is going to break along this front. Which ties into the whole relationship thing, which has been leaving me quite frustrated. Some how I've got the feeling that a lot the second of part will take care of it's self when the first part is figured out. Though it doesn't mean it's easy by any means and of course it is frustrating. Till things break in some fashion, I'll just keep waiting for the first game of the year.

Baseball and sanity.

With the opening of spring training the countdown to opening day of baseball season is really upon us. For me the year really begins in April when baseball season begins and summer truly doesn't begin for me until I have gotten to the first baseball game of the year. When I think about baseball and how it relates to my life and how important it is too me. And the fact I live in a ski town where if it doen't revolve around the mountain it doesn't matter. At times I feel like nobody gets it. There is more to life than snowboarding. I could go on about this topic but that's another post. The same could easily be said for baseball, but this my sanity damn it. And that's what I'm writing about. How baseball is keeping me sane. Wheather it be in relationships, life circumstances and other events. Like day eight of eleven of a Habitat for Humanity trip.
This has got to be one of the best escapes that I've ever had. After eight long days of spending every waking moment with each other, it was time for break before somebody got killed and on this trip to Mississipi one of the people that we had met. Had season tickets for the Mississippi State baseball team along with all the other major sports there too. And it didn't take long to arrange a trip up there. And after an enjoyable day at the ballpark, some awesome BBQ.(they truly know how to do BBQ in the south. ) and picking up some amazing baked goods to take back to the rest the group. That game was much need dose of sanity in the middle of a Habitat trip. And it really helped keep the sanity when on our last flight home we landed at the air force base in my home town and had to be escorted back to home by the air force. It was a crazy way to end the trip let me tell you.
And then's there the matter of relationships and baseball. And times for me baseball has been an escape, refuge and some of the only things that make sense to me when I'm trying to figure out relationships and girls. Most of the time I just stick with baseball for it's a whole lot less confusing and it's something that I can understand and it doesn't let me down or reject me like people will.
Especially lately, where my relationship have been frustrating, confusing, bewildering and to the point of wondering if anything I have done matters. And really the wonderment of what is it going to take to her to come to christ. Sometimes when I think about it, can I just head to a baseball game to help figure it out, at least give me a little piece of sanity and grace.
And for this summer I hope to get way more than four games this. I hoping at least 70 plus games this year. Because that means I'll be back working in the game. For I recently appiled for the Stockon, Ca Ports Director of Food and Beverage position and I so want to be back in game combing my passion for food and baseball. That's what I want to do for the summer. And for the relationship stuff at the moment I think I'll stick with baseball. Sometimes it's easier that way.